Where is my expectation~~~~?

What’s kind of life for me in Jakarta?
If you really wanna me describe this, I dunno how to say that.
Everyone should have one dream to develop his or her career.
I would be the one who saw the future or the chance.
I did have the enthusiasm to challenge the different culture, place, even behavior.
I was not afraid of facing these and I am not afraid these now.
But!!!
I feel so upset and disappointed now.
No one has responsibility for my job; no one guarantee for my job.
I do not think that will be my problem.
I am mature enough to manage my life even I do not have any insurance to ensure my healthy.
Shame on me!!
But I still do not too worry about that.
I believe I could take care myself very well.
I could handle well for everything about me.
On the other hand, my shareholders~~
What the hell of them!!
I really do not know how they do business for their career.
I might be not that kinda rich guy. I might be not have enough time to touch with society as them.
I know how to solve the problem or which problem should be solved first.
I even know how to make a good convention and deal between colleagues, boss, investors, and so on.
Monet was not everything for them before I came here.
As I came, money is everything for them.
I should believe that they usually say “ it its not too much. Why do they care about that”
Hahaha! Its all BS in my mind.
I haven’t gotta everything what I should get.
So should I do my duty well?

Do you know the answer?
I dunno~~~~